My Success Is In My Hands

I love the energy this sentence conveys, right down to my bones. And more importantly, I know it's true.

My success is in my hands.

Stop a moment and really feel the power and the resonance of this statement. When I am in my "right" mind, I do this naturally. But there are lots of times when I am not in my right mind and I can't tell what is true and what is illusion.

This is what I have discovered over the years. Intuitive insight, just like a sword, cuts through the mind chatter and liberates and illuminates. I ask clients to stop and really listen to what they just said, "I race against the clock," "I can't hear myself think," "The walls are closing in." Now, these very expressions of frustration and limitation shift when we stop and really feel or sense the energy behind the words. Take the moment to stop and be aware of the power and intention of words. Really feel the vibration, feel the statement. Like a bell that rings and we hear the lingering music linger long after it was struck or the pebble tossed on the pond and the rings spreading out across the water long after the pebble has disappeared, words strung together have this same capacity when we really pay attention. Because words are just a vehicle for the non-verbal energy behind the words.

My success is in my hands.

Ok, so here's the magical story...

Years and years ago, I wanted to be a massage therapist. I LOVED the idea, but every time I thought about studying for a license, I had the thought, "This will kill me. I am WAY to sensitive to put my hands on people." The desire always stayed, the thought "I would love to get my hands on people...literally. I might have had my "Zen" death in my 30's had I been willing to die."

Now, after I went through the kundalini awakening, I noticed that in addition to the increased intuitive perceptions visually, I was aware of a sensitivity through my hands. Now, I still haven't trained in massage, but I do give them to friends and family. I began to notice that when I put my hands on people, I received all kinds of information about their body, health and energy. I sensed where "stress" pockets were or where stuff didn't feel balanced. It was really cool. However, I was in two other training/educational programs, so I didn't commit to massage or bodywork programs. I finished my coursework in 2009 and started my coaching business. I love what I am doing, but I still notice this desire to "get me hands on people."

I was guided to buy a book one day, that I did NOT want to buy called "Hands of Light" by Barbara Brennan, but the desire was strong, so I followed the desire. A great deal of the book still eludes part of me, but there is a lot that makes sense and has been inspirational over the last couple years. But still...

Well, this is where it felt so magical the last several months and with my mother's wise comment...thank you Mumma, it all shifted into place like a beautiful kaleidoscope and I always know when this is true because I began to cry...I was moved - message received. The details were this...

In late summer, I started working with two amazing women for their mobile fingerprinting business. If you live in the San Jose area they are Verify Group, Inc. and they have an awesome business model. I work on-call on big jobs for them. It cracked me up to get my "Fingerprint Roller" certificate. It has been a fun way to make some additional money and meet all kinds of great people.

Next, my aforementioned friend Keisha saw a posting for a free tele-course on hand analysis by a fellow Martha Beck coach named Caryn Reddick. Her business is called Success Statement and her tele-course was really fascinating. Now, my hunch is I was open and interested in Caryn's business niche only because I had recently gone to work for Verify Group. I signed up for a four week class with her to have the fingerprint analysis and have my personalized profile. Additionally, I just thought it would be interesting to have this information for my clients and tidbits for the fingerprinting jobs. SO, I started that last week and it has been fascinating and so accurate.

Well, then, as I posted this week, the beautiful image of using my fingers to read in braille floated up the other day. It was a very powerful image. Well, then my mother made a comment about having the information at my fingertips and just then, all the desire to put my hands on people flooded back in. I had this very, VERY strong sense that I had these amazing, encoded messages in my fingerprints and in my hands and Caryn's tools were a key. Life just keeps dropping images, like bread crumbs, along the trail for me to follow. We can take a LONG time between the intial desire and the physical manifestation.

So, instead of getting off-track with 10 other programs, or thoughts of a Ph.D. or three new creative adventures, my next focus will be to get certified in acupressure and see where that journey takes me. It will then be so exciting to combine my listening hands, with my creative insights and the intuitive intelligence tools...feels like a winning, "successful" combination.

Oh, one last funny piece to the story. The picture in this post...right after I finished the call with my mother, I went looking for a picture to put on the blog. I wanted an image that wasn't copyrighted and none of the free sites had what I wanted. I stumbled across this website, http://www.123rf.com/ and the home page of the site says,

"Creative images at your fingertips!"

Laugh out loud. The universe has an amazing sense of humor! For me, creative images are indeed, at my fingertips.

So, gratitude today to so many - my mother Jeannie for her insight and her unwavering support of my creative awakening, to Lisa and Susan at Verify Group, Inc. http://www.verifygroup.com/ for the fun of working with them and to Caryn Reddick for my "success statement" http://www.caryninc.com/. It is wonderful to have so many new connections.

Here is to the belief that success is in all our hands. And if you don't yet believe it, just ask Caryn, it's in your hands!

I See Better In The Dark

This post was inspired by my friend and muse Keisha Gallegos. We were having one of our many conversations recently and I said,

"I see better in the
dark."

She laughed and said, "I love it - now that is a topic for the blog."

Well, fast forward to this morning, when again, I found myself in conversation with Keisha. She was helping me walk through a sticky situation that I didn't feel good about. I talked, talked, talked; my hunch is around my feelings, when Keisha asked a really direct and great question. I could feel the wall go up. I knew I was free to have any feeling I wanted in that moment, but I didn't feel like crying...I didn't feel angry, but I wasn't completely settled either. She was really great about just letting me talk and process this way, sort of feel my way around. My friends are really great about that! We finished and I did feel that there had been a shift...and I found out a bit later just how big a shift.

I moved on from my conversation with Keisha to take a quick bath and while washing my hair, I had the image of fingers reading words in braille. The light went on...the ah ha moment. I do see better in the dark, that clear-seeing visionary. But, there are many times when I am not able to see a situation clearly for myself and when I can't see, I feel my way around. What I realized in the conversation with Keisha (and God Bless You for your patience) was I do not work something through by feeling lots of emotions. If we use the "I see better in the dark" image, then when I am not able to see myself in the dark, that is when I shift to the sense of touch and I "read" my feelings in braille. My fingertips running over the bumps and grooves in the paper, the sensitive touch of reading my emotions.

What a powerful image - very beautiful, clean and clear.

For those of us who feel with our minds first, then our hearts, stomachs and tear ducts, often in that order, I felt seen. Now how funny is that - with all of these blind, seer, vision, braille images. I was able to see myself and how I feel so clearly.

I read my feelings through touch.

For those of us with this kind of temperament and self-control, it is lovely to know we too are feeling our way along. It just looks different than the way other people feel...but we are feeling.

I have always had the sight, that clairvoyant ability to "see" beyond the physical senses...to see with my spirit eyes. It may be the Irish in me, or the strong matriaichal family line, or because I was born under the "s"ight star"...I don't know why I have it, I just do. And I didn't know what to do with this incredibly perceptive ability...it was strange and unpredictable and different.

So, I put it away.

I then proceeded to have recurring dreams for the next 20 years where I was always driving BLIND.

A coincidence? I think not.

When my spirit woke up, really woke up and was free to bring in the mystical, powerful, present love-sight back into my life, well...my in-sight came back with it. And, hence my comment to Keisha about seeing better in the dark. I close my eyes and connect with the powerful images that reveal themselves to me...like having the key to clarity. Now, sometimes, the images are not clear for myself or I can't access them, and that is why it was so amazing to receive the image of the fingers running over the pages of a book written in braille. Seeing by feeling...feeling to see...all in the dark.

In case you are wondering, I haven't had a "driving blind" dream in over four years.

You guessed it, I haven't had that dream since I "awoke a new" in 2006.

So, thank you Keisha for your love and generous spirit and for guiding me to "see" how powerfully I am feeling...one word at a time.

Keisha herself is an amazing coach and you can learn more about her at http://www.starlitpathlifecoaching.com/.

You Know You're Not in Kansas Anymore When...

The Story of Oz is timeless.

It sparks the imagination in so many ways and with the birth of Wicked several years ago, another variation of this story is inspiring new generations. The story is rich in symbolic images and inspiration. Born out of this story is the classic phrase, "You're not in Kansas anymore." We chuckle, that nervous chuckle, when we say this. Something about Kansas was comfortable, safe, known. No surprise that Kansas is the state that is smack in the middle on the map. I find this an interesting image. We leave the "middle place" to go out on a journey and experience a much bigger world and then we return to home, back where we started, only different than before.

Lots of people are going on journeys and for so many people, they are the accidental tourist, the reluctant traveler, "dazed and confused." But something different is happening right now, isn't it. Everyone can feel it, we are all so much more "sensitive." That is such an excellent word...our senses, all of them, all six, are really waking up. So many of us are feeling more and more, and numbing out less and less. And there are so many more resources available to support all this feeling. There are more specialists than ever before, really someone for everyone, be it a doctor, therapist, coach, chiropractor, shaman, psychic, spiritual teacher, friend, parent, spirit guide, massage therapist, acupuncturist, hairdresser. Depending on how far from Kansas you have traveled, you many have encountered many on the list, whether you believe in them or not. I have had powerful conversations with the lady at the post office and the perfect stranger. I love that phrase, perfect stranger. I bet a whole lot of you out there are meeting the perfect strangers...the person who shows up at just the right time, with information, opportunity or experience, the proverbial messenger.

So, here's my hunch. I went through a spontaneous and powerful spiritual awakening in 2006 and I didn't know for the five years before that what the hell was going on. I can tell you I was at times terrified, angry, exhausted, afraid, overwhelmed, defiant, stubborn. My life felt out of control and I couldn't figure it out, think my way through it. Sound familiar to anyone? So, I want to save you some time and energy and clue you in to some of the "symptoms" of a spiritual awakening. Like it or not, this is often what is happening. This way, you have more awareness and resources than fear, anger, resistance or pain. I wish for you the opportunity to feel curious, optimistic and more rested while your spirit is able to join in with your body and mind. Less work and more play!

So, (tongue in cheek) here are the top 10 "You Know Your Not In Kansas Anymore When..."

1. You begin to notice that you are made of electricity and your body tingles, buzzes, vibrates at random times. (I recommend with any physical signs that you always consult with a doctor about your symptoms and rule in or out other medical conditions.) You can have a spiritual awakening AND a physical imbalance at the same time. One doesn't exclude the other.

2. You see shimmering lights and colors around people or objects and you have never had this experience before.

3. You notice repeating numbers, patterns and events and they feel so significant and important but you don't know why.

4. You notice the repeating patterns and you are willing to share this out loud with someone you trust.

5. You feel overwhelmed with emotion, positive uncontrollable laughter or the inability to hold back tears and you feel a little crazy and out of control.

6. You are inspired to act spontaneously, go where you are guided and make decisions based on an emotional knowing or feeling rather than a rational pre-planned thought.

7. You are able to be in one room and view what is taking place in another room with the "eye in your mind." Or have a conversation in your mind with someone at 8 am and then the phone rings at 12 noon and you have the conversation all over again. You are able, just like the movie theatre, to "preview" coming attractions.

8. You experience a sense of calm and peacefulness like you have never experienced before.

9. Your dreams are powerful and prophetic and your "dream-life" starts to become your "waking-life."

10. You write, draw, paint deeply significant and meaningful images or words but you have no idea what until later and then you discover that it is something significant and the electrical, physical sensations start and you are back at number 1 on the list.

This kind of awakening is intense and often physical. Know that there is lots of support and guidance out there...though, I have a hunch that you already know this!